I have been in a bad space lately…

16 02 2014

I realize that it’s guilt coming up and overwhelming me.   The thing is I am not an extraordinary person.  I am absolutely average.

I live everyday being as kind to others as I find possible and caring about the effect I have on them.  I don’t have a job, but I do work, and I look for work.  I don’t invest myself fully in the long distance relationships I have but my life is full and busy: Who does?

I’m married and date but my husband has been aware of it and we have lived apart for 6 years now…I signed the divorce papers, he just hasn’t filed them.

All the things that I have done that make me feel crappy, others do and I wouldn’t blink twice nor waste a moment judging.  Why does it devastate me when its ME doing it?

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